Wat a difference A Day Made
Was offline since last nite coz lappy screen went blank. Had to go down Fujitsu this afternoon and now, she's back in action. Was quite glad when i could use it as excuse to stay off the computer. Went instead to try reading up for law and ended up with Time mag ( gonna pile up all Time mags till after school to read one by one).
Tossed and turned, while reading.. deliberating, resoluting, and yes, tearing a little- metaphorically lah, inside)
it was just last night 3am, in the middle of the night, as i stare at the bright light still left on, that i had resoluted to :
End My Blogging Days for good.
I wanted this blog to die. Cos i didnt feel that there was anymore happy stuff to blog and tell u guys about. Cos i feel that i dun deserve this and every attention anymore. Cos i lost the meaning in a lot of things, and dun see why i should keep blogging and getting your attention. That i should be punished and this would be a good way of punishing me by depriving me future means of expression.
Last nite, it felt very empty in my room. I felt as though, everything was so far away from me- i couldnt gasp onto anything concrete. Almost like the same night when i almost died when tat person left. That you were so close, yet since then, forever so far from ur dreams. I guess this is the first time i'm refering to tat person directly over here. Yeah, it was very similar. Except that this time, i have to play the tough cookie. Its tough to be the tough cookie.
Then i preoccupied myself with going down to get my lappy fixed, and ...wat a difference a day made.
I still am not convinced about continuing blogging, but until then... you'll know it when it happens.
Tossed and turned, while reading.. deliberating, resoluting, and yes, tearing a little- metaphorically lah, inside)
it was just last night 3am, in the middle of the night, as i stare at the bright light still left on, that i had resoluted to :
End My Blogging Days for good.
I wanted this blog to die. Cos i didnt feel that there was anymore happy stuff to blog and tell u guys about. Cos i feel that i dun deserve this and every attention anymore. Cos i lost the meaning in a lot of things, and dun see why i should keep blogging and getting your attention. That i should be punished and this would be a good way of punishing me by depriving me future means of expression.
Last nite, it felt very empty in my room. I felt as though, everything was so far away from me- i couldnt gasp onto anything concrete. Almost like the same night when i almost died when tat person left. That you were so close, yet since then, forever so far from ur dreams. I guess this is the first time i'm refering to tat person directly over here. Yeah, it was very similar. Except that this time, i have to play the tough cookie. Its tough to be the tough cookie.
Then i preoccupied myself with going down to get my lappy fixed, and ...wat a difference a day made.
I still am not convinced about continuing blogging, but until then... you'll know it when it happens.
posted by ernie bernie at 5:20 PM
6 Comments:
Hey...still checking on your blog everyday for your comeback -u cater to mature readers unlike a particular mktplace:P so dun have to be on happy things always:)
despite the slightly pointed reference, yeah. i'm oso checking ur blog everyday. dun disappoint ur two biggest blog fans leh. ENCORE! ENCORE!
i love u gals, but i'm trying to be annal and be like a little kid pinching his nose at the bottom of the deep swimming pool, and refusing to come out of it.
im ur big fan too!! and i paid non-refundable subscription!! please gimme wat i ordered..!
Hahaha....
*muakz*
phew! good thing i didn't pay. (i'm still on free trial subscription) otherwise kena conned of my money.
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