~its always just around the bend~
Heard a wonderful spanish version of this song, Moon River on the spanish film Bad Education. Just love this song. This line in particular just sends weird vibes thru me...
Was thinking, that in this term, i'm a happier person though still reserving lots of melancholy to myself. I feel more liberated, more carefree walking around in school, not having to worry about who i'm gonna bang into, just around the bend.
No need to hide, no more.
I have BLest friend and the gang to fill my last term in school, with lotsa fun and happy memories. May these drown out the trashed periods in my life here. Berl asked me today if i'm looking forward to work, and I'm actually looking forward to working life. I take it as a new chapter in my life, that can be fully detached from my uni life. I wanna work, fully immerse myself in work, forget about every other else, forget all the past and all memories. Just work, work, work...
I realised tat when u start working, the jump from school life to work is so different, that ur priorities in life would just change. You become "restless" and unstable and tat's the sadest thing tat can happen. You realising that ur life has changed tremendously, just because of a change in environment. Sometimes, those things that u value now, would just be worthless by then. And its scary.
Friday was also another one of those days, where i feel tat its the fun-est day in my school life. In case i forget to say this at the end of the term, and in case you're so dumb to realise it, ernie's really grateful to u gals for making me feel wanted, feel happy about myself, and hence making me happy again.
Just came back from the club gathering...
I'm gonna be honest: I've lost passion for theatre.
(if there's any in the first place).
It died, when the whole meaning in theatre to me, had ended. I'm only doing a small comfortable part in this production for various reasons. And most importantly, because of friends. Without it, i really dun see myself in this at all.
Sometimes, i'm so angry at how i'm making my own life so sad and melancholic.
But i feel even more sad, than angry, at how i'm making my own life so sad and melancholic.
Nitz babes. Lots more windows for me to clean tomolo morning...
Was thinking, that in this term, i'm a happier person though still reserving lots of melancholy to myself. I feel more liberated, more carefree walking around in school, not having to worry about who i'm gonna bang into, just around the bend.
No need to hide, no more.
I have BLest friend and the gang to fill my last term in school, with lotsa fun and happy memories. May these drown out the trashed periods in my life here. Berl asked me today if i'm looking forward to work, and I'm actually looking forward to working life. I take it as a new chapter in my life, that can be fully detached from my uni life. I wanna work, fully immerse myself in work, forget about every other else, forget all the past and all memories. Just work, work, work...
I realised tat when u start working, the jump from school life to work is so different, that ur priorities in life would just change. You become "restless" and unstable and tat's the sadest thing tat can happen. You realising that ur life has changed tremendously, just because of a change in environment. Sometimes, those things that u value now, would just be worthless by then. And its scary.
Friday was also another one of those days, where i feel tat its the fun-est day in my school life. In case i forget to say this at the end of the term, and in case you're so dumb to realise it, ernie's really grateful to u gals for making me feel wanted, feel happy about myself, and hence making me happy again.
Just came back from the club gathering...
I'm gonna be honest: I've lost passion for theatre.
(if there's any in the first place).
It died, when the whole meaning in theatre to me, had ended. I'm only doing a small comfortable part in this production for various reasons. And most importantly, because of friends. Without it, i really dun see myself in this at all.
Sometimes, i'm so angry at how i'm making my own life so sad and melancholic.
But i feel even more sad, than angry, at how i'm making my own life so sad and melancholic.
Nitz babes. Lots more windows for me to clean tomolo morning...
posted by ernie bernie at 11:10 PM
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