If Only I could Turn Back Time

Got this inspiration from BLest on the classic question on regret. You know, i betcha think tat i sound so melancholic, so yearning, and definitely has lots of regret. Well, yes and no.

I've got so many regrets, that i've kinda stopped listing them in the head, and cant figure out which is the biggest that i've got. I dun even know how many i've got. To the extent that i've realised tat i've survived today, even without turning back time to make amends. The only reason for the yearn to turn back time, is primarily so that i'll feel better and wont carry these burdens and mistakes along with me forever. So regret, is no regret at all.

And the best cure for it- is Amnesia.
In the words of youth, the best cure for it- is time.
(Some say Alcohol- with a Capital A)

No more late nite road trips, no more ridiculous scandalous nites, all because i've gotten what i've wanted ( a moment's thrill, temporary amnesia) and am trying to gather myself to welcome the meadow, even though the meadow's so beyond my reach...stop belittling myself, i'm WORTH MORE than that.

PS: since my desk's gotten a little space, have decided to flood them with meaningful literary books. Been digging out old Wordsworth poems ( books dating the 60s- imagine still have such antiques inside my house) that my mum's been keeping. Hopefully it can help me in my stupid yearbook inspiration.

Had super long break in between the yearbook, one regret here is tat i've not submitted to Faith yet, sorry babe. Will do it by tonite.

Was watching KungFu Hustle and Charlie's Angels- Full Throttle, alone at home today. I think i'm beginning to appreciate the beauty of solitude. Ideological changes lately has changed my mindset about many fundamental things lately. Dun blame me, blame society. But hopefully, this won't be another cause for a Turn-Back-Time Plea.