Ay Mambo, Mambo Italiano ( thy name is evil)

Suddenly today, begin to feel that i wont be enjoying BSM Spain as much as i would like it to be. Starting to feel out of place...

Actually more excited now about going with BLest amiga and Faith to Italy and Europe after April. Por que? porque i have to feel wanted in the group. At least in a smaller and closer-knitted group, i'll feel as though i'm playing an important role. I'm really having serious issues with myself lately. Damn Damn serious.

Swinging between doing a small part in musical and doing absolutely nothing at all.
Maybe the best way in which i can contribute, is by paying tat $25 for a seat.

Hahaha... But the plan is to get myself involved, so that i can justify and force people to watch it because of me. Hahaha... tat includes people who are reading THIS DAMN BLOG! Yes, YOU!!! Dun look around... YOU! This is serious- friendships have soured because people refuse to come watch...and now, they're.... non-existent?? So its TAT serious. Hahahaha... Dun understand, i can throw an arm, leg, to support them, and yet, they can refuse to come knowing that i want them to come support me. And worst still, those who desert me when i need them..

I can't forgive, i can't forget. But i can forgo.

Hell, why are u fighting so hard? You're not PM anymore.

*Bienvenidos, Welcome, Evil Ernie*

PS: Can i blame this blog on the late night fatigue? Puedo, por favor?