Gotta answer the calling, gotta answer the calling, gotta answer the calling.... trying not to think about anything else...

Was telling Ry about answering the calling especially the first calling to join STTD was obviously good. Then she asked, wat is it? And i replied tat isnt it obvious tat the first calling to join STTD led to good things for me? Then she replied in a manner tat totally shocked me- tat only i myself would know wat was good out of it, even though you think its obvious, but no one else would know. Though she was always around to see wat i see and go thru, she was right in tat i cannot assume tat another person would see immediately, wat i deem as the good things as an outcome.

In any case, all things good and bad are subjective. I think i am screwing my mind very much by thinking too much into subjective things. Why cant i use my mind to more constructive use earlier? Sigh...

Hope its not messing your mind tat much.